Finally, I'm okay!

Life has been so hectic and spiraling out of control the past year and half. I believe everything happens for a reason, however it is finding the reason that can take forever.

I've finally figured it all out. I've learned that I am a much stronger person than I give myself credit for. I lost a lot friends in the past couple of months, and to tell you the truth hear lately I've been much happier without them. The best part is that the cattiness and all the girl drama is pretty much non-existent with out them. I've also learned who my true friends are, and I'm so thankful for them.

I do almost everything on my own. I don't really rely on other people. It always nice to have someone to talk to when your upset, but it's me who ultimately figures out the solution to the problem. As my best friend Kyle said "you'll figure it out, you always do, and you always will", I've been pretty much living my life by his words. I finally see how its me, who is the strong one, and it's okay to be upset because I finally face my problems and insecurities head on.

Speaking of Kyle, I'm so proud of him. He got into Belmont, he had been waiting forever to hear back from them and he finally did. He's now undecided between TCU and Belmont so I talked to my dad and he decided to give Kyle and one of his parents to round trip buddy passes to Nashville so he can go see the school one more time, so he can make decision. My dad works for southwest, so it doesn't cost us anything but my dad rarely gives them to people, so it was a big deal.

I'm finally okay again. I can think with out crying. I'm not nearly as stressed out. And most importantly I'm generally happy again.

Value is more than just a numbet

I'm complety feed with all this talk about the value of things. Value is more than just a number and I really think people need to realize it. I may only be a high school senior but I know more about the value of the important things in life.In today’s society, Americans have become so obsessed and concerned with numbers. We attempt to put a numerical value to just about everything. In the past few weeks, I have heard a numerical value place on the following topics. How many teenagers have car accidents, many senior citizens will live past 65 years old, what did the stock market do at closing? I have come to the realization that sometimes the numerical measurement used in this manner dilutes the true meaning of many situations and topics. As Americans, we need to put more importance on the meaning of situations and topics, rather than a just a numerical value. For example, a smile, a first cry of a newborn baby and Love.
You cannot measure a smile by any numerical value. In case and point, a smile not only shows ones inner beauty and happiness, it can also bring enjoyment to others. On a depressing day, a smile from one person to another can start a chain reaction. A smile can change one person’s outlook from misfortune and dreariness to that of pleasure even if it is for only a moment. A smile can offer a glimmer of happiness, hope, gratitude, a positive thought or perhaps a much-needed moment that is tension free.
How can we even begin to measure the sound of baby’s first cry? It brings about a new life, which will one day have an impact on the world. A small person that starts out crying and one day provides a new voice to be heard. One that will add diversity, and one day contribute to the planet that we call home. A baby’s first cry brings happiness and relief to the mother who perhaps tried to conceive, taking all the precautionary measure to deliver the healthiest baby that she could have. The cry that says congratulations you have a new baby, you are finally a mother, father, grandparent aunt, uncle, brother or sister. That first cry can symbolize a miracle, hope, perseverance, and true happiness. It produces emotions that one can only happen in that moment, producing more merit than one can see from the outside. How can you a place a numerical value or a price tag, on a cry that has so much more meaning than any word or number could ever describe?
One thing that everyone holds dear is Love. Love is one of the most valued and coveted commodities in the world. It is what everyone seeks and desires in some form or fashion in one’s lifetime. For those that are lucky to have love, they cannot put a numerical value to a love that shared by two people. You cannot buy love nor can you trade it. How can you put a measurement of numerical value to Love? Love is so precious for those blessed to possess it.
The value of an item, or gesture should be more than just a mere number. It must have meaning. In my assessment, feelings are what make life worth living. Many of us try to act on the value of logic alone, however one can never fully take out his or hers own emotions. When and event happens, we think, and re-act from prior situations and experiences. Our emotions and feelings are a part of who we are. We then decide how to respond. Some try to put their emotions side, which sometimes is impossible. Our life experiences help to define who are, who we will become as well as how we handle different situations. Some realize what is best may not make them happy but even then, your emotions play a part. These emotions may be guilt, sadness, or the will to do the right thing. Our emotions are immeasurable. Therefore, when an event occurs, such as buying a new house or a child taking its first steps, our emotions are always present. Therefore, at this time I ask the question can you really value something with just a number? Our emotions that are worth more than words can express, how can we ever begin to place a value on the events and items in our lives? The importance and value of most things should come from the heart. It comes from our experiences, and our feelings.
To put a numerical value on everything is unwise. So how can we articulate the value of things and situations you ask? The answer in my opinion is that we can try to describe it to the best our ability that our words will allow. Realizing that it is not completely possible to achieve, we must try to comprehend what the true significance is and how it will play into our lives. How it changes our beliefs, how it challenges our thoughts. I have realized that the things and experiences that hold the most value are the things and experiences that transform us the most. This causes us to become an enhanced, more compassionate, understanding and productive society and individuals.

Bye, generation change

LAST DAY OF GENERATION CHANGE!!!
I'm super excited no more finial class, teaching me stuff I already know, don't spend money you don't have.

On a happier note I went and saw Stephen F. Austin yesterday and I really liked it. I'd much rather do to Texas Tech, but sfa is nice 2nd option.Things

I been pretty boring. I putting off studing for my Psych test that I have to get an "a" on. It's tomorrow morning at 8:00. Well I'm off to study, I think.